Gift yourself permission to feel your feelings, express your emotions, and ultimately heal your heart. Diving deep and feeling the very things we fear is how we heal both our hearts and the hearts of those around us.
Suppressed, stuck, emotional energy manifests in our physical bodies, thoughts, and behaviors. If you are wondering why you are struggling with self-destructive behavior, negative internal self-dialogue, or physical ailments, take a look at the emotions you are unwilling to feel and process.
Trust me. I was right there with you.
I’ve learned the hard way. I suppressed my emotions for at least 15 years growing up. I would never let myself cry or get angry. As a young professional dancer, I developed a thick skin and always let things roll off my back. I continually charged forward without ever looking back to reflect on what I had been through, or how I was truly feeling in the moment.
On my spiritual path, I found myself trying to distance myself from all of my “negative” emotions in the hopes of maintaining zen and peaceful center. I thought I was above my emotions and was supposed to hyper control how I reacted to them.
That feeling my “bad” feelings was to be avoided at all costs on my way to “enlightenment.” This suppression lead to 5 years of bulimia.
How I Began My Journey to Heal My Heart
All of these negative ideas and habits were completely shattered in my first ayahuasca ceremony. I learned very quickly that all of my suppressed emotions were wreaking havoc on my heart, clouding my vision, and preventing me from truly ascending and expanding in all aspects of my life.
I’d become my own worst enemy and was now being forced, quite literally, to feel my feelings. I cried for four hours straight, purged several times, and cleared what felt like 10 years of emotional baggage in one night.
So, to put it bluntly, I realized I was a fucking mess energetically, and I had no idea how much pain I had been putting myself through all those years.
60+ ceremonies later, I feel all emotions so deeply now. Deeper than I thought was possible. My heart aches or expands instantly. Sometimes my ego wishes I wouldn’t cry in front of people because they may perceive it as weakness.
But I’ve learned when I heal my heart, I inspire others to do the same. And that is what I am here to do now. That’s why I began leading medicine retreats so others could experience the healing power of ayahuasca as well.
So, do you want to heal your heart? Comment below and let me know how it goes!
Sending Much Love!